皆さん、こんにちは。突然ですが、タイトルの通り、ちょっとお休みします。

本当にひどい燃え尽き症候群に陥っています。今まで経験したことのないような。ちょっとだけ本音を言わせてほしい。

これまで2年以上コンテンツを作ってきた中で、燃え尽き症候群から立ち直るのは最低でも2日以内だった。今回も同じようなものだろうと思っていたが、燃え尽き症候群の日々は数週間になり、最終的には1カ月以上になった。毎日、走れるような気がしていたのに、今は這うのもやっとで、ただパニックになっている。まだ発表していない作品はどれも僕にはクソにしか見えないし、劣悪なクオリティを世に出したくない。

今は絵を描くことがとても辛く、難しいと感じている。同じような意欲を与えてくれるものがもうあまりないんだ。昔は『幻影』に夢中だったから、キャラクターをたくさん描くことができた。でも、時が経つにつれて、その興味は薄れていき、もう同じようには描けなくなってしまったんだ。

分かっているのは、投稿を再開したら、オリジナルキャラクターのコレットを掘り下げてみたいということ。彼女には、キャラクターとして描ききれていない部分がたくさんあるし、そろそろそれに集中する時期なのかもしれないと感じているんだ。ファンアートやHシーンは作るつもりなので、それは変わらないから安心してね。

また、今までの画風を変えたいと思っている。自分の作品を分析しすぎているうちに、自分のアートスタイルのテイストが変化していることに気がつき、現在も試行錯誤中です。新しい画風が出来上がったら、ぜひ応援に来てほしい。

9月には復帰したいと思っていますが、もし変更があればいつでもここで報告します。

残念なお知らせになってしまったこと、そして最近の僕のアートが今ひとつだったことを心からお詫びします。今現在、もっとうまくやれないのに、もっとうまくやれると思うと恐ろしい気分だ。

長い間応援してくれたみんなに感謝したい。皆さんのサポートがなかったら、ここまで来られなかったでしょう。ここではあまりコメントをいただけないけど、そのひとつひとつに本当に感謝しているし、皆さんにしかできない方法でどれだけ励まされているかわからない。

今はもっと休んで、自分のペースで描いていこうと思う。またすぐに戻ってこられるといいな。

しばらくの間、私の最後の絵をお楽しみください。

私のオリジナルキャラクター、コレットの小さな絵です。

ありがとう。

Hi everyone, I know this might be sudden but as the title suggests, I'm going to take a break.

I'm going through a really bad burnout. One that I never experienced before. I hope you'll let me speak my mind for a bit.

Throughout my entire 2+ years of making content, I would always recover from a burnout within a minimum of 2 days. This time I thought it will be similar but the days of burnout turned into weeks and eventually turned into a month and more. Everyday, I'm just sort of freaking out because it felt like I was able to run and now I can barely even crawl. Every artwork I've been making that I have not shown yet, looks like shit to me and I don't want to put subpar quality out there.

Drawing feels very painful and difficult for me right now. There's not a lot of things out there that gives me the same drive anymore. It used be to Genshin because I was really obsessed with the game and that gave me a lot of inspiration to pump out so many drawings of the characters. But as time passes, I lost that interest and It's really not the same anymore.

What I do know is, is that I want to explore my original character Colette when I return to posting. There's a lot about her that I haven't fleshed out as a character, and I feel like it might be time to focus on that. I still will be making fanart and h-scenes so rest assure that won't change.

I also would like to change the way I've been painting. During the days I was over analyzing my work, I realized my taste in art style is shifting and It's something I'm currently still experimenting. I hope you'll come to support my new art style when it's ready in the coming future.

I hope to return in September but I'll always update you guys here if that changes.

I apologize sincerely for the disappointing news and if my art lately have not been up to par. I feel horrible knowing I could do better when I'm unable to at the moment.

I want to thank everyone for supporting me for so long. I would not have gotten this far if not for your support. I don't get much comments here but I really appreciate every single one of them and you have no idea how much they encourage me in ways you are only able to.

I'm going to rest more and draw at my own pace for now. I hope to be back soon.

Please enjoy this final art from me for awhile.

A doodle of my oc, Colette.

Thanks and I love you guys ♥

Hi everyone, I know this might be sudden but as the title suggests, I'm going to take a break.

I'm going through a really bad burnout. One that I never experienced before. I hope you'll let me speak my mind for a bit.

Throughout my entire 2+ years of making content, I would always recover from a burnout within a minimum of 2 days. This time I thought it will be similar but the days of burnout turned into weeks and eventually turned into a month and more. Everyday, I'm just sort of freaking out because it felt like I was able to run and now I can barely even crawl. Every artwork I've been making that I have not shown yet, looks like shit to me and I don't want to put subpar quality out there.

Drawing feels very painful and difficult for me right now. There's not a lot of things out there that gives me the same drive anymore. It used be to Genshin because I was really obsessed with the game and that gave me a lot of inspiration to pump out so many drawings of the characters. But as time passes, I lost that interest and It's really not the same anymore.

What I do know is, is that I want to explore my original character Colette when I return to posting. There's a lot about her that I haven't fleshed out as a character, and I feel like it might be time to focus on that. I still will be making fanart and h-scenes so rest assure that won't change.

I also would like to change the way I've been painting. During the days I was over analyzing my work, I realized my taste in art style is shifting and It's something I'm currently still experimenting. I hope you'll come to support my new art style when it's ready in the coming future.

I hope to return in September but I'll always update you guys here if that changes.

I apologize sincerely for the disappointing news and if my art lately have not been up to par. I feel horrible knowing I could do better when I'm unable to at the moment.

I want to thank everyone for supporting me for so long. I would not have gotten this far if not for your support. I don't get much comments here but I really appreciate every single one of them and you have no idea how much they encourage me in ways you are only able to.

I'm going to rest more and draw at my own pace for now. I hope to be back soon.

Please enjoy this final art from me for awhile.

A doodle of my oc, Colette.

Thanks and I love you guys ♥